yikes

May. 28th, 2016 05:50 pm
alianne82: (Klaine - BIOTA)
I forgot how much I hate listening to recordings of my own voice. I made myself listen to the Todaydreambelievers Glee podcast I did and OMG that is NOT how I usually sound like I DO NOT ALWAYS SOUND LIKE I HAVE A COLD and I also don't always sound like a complete moron and okay yes the accent is real, I do have a horrible German accent. Good thing I signed up for like three more of those, haha. I am looking forward to recording them, but HOLY CRAP what is my voice. But I don't get many chances to *speak* English so YAY I'm not going to pass up this opportunity!

On a less awkward topic, I hope you're all having a good weekend!
alianne82: (klaine)
What has Glee meant to me? I don’t know how to even begin answering that question. But today, as we are waiting for the final episode to air, I’m sat here crying as I type this. Because it has meant a lot to me. And, you know what? It’s going to keep meaning a lot to me.

I have been in this fandom pretty much from the beginning. I posted my first Klaine fic during season 2, and it wasn’t my first fanfic, but it was the first thing I had written in quite a while.

You see, I have always been writing. Original things first, pretty much since I knew how to write. And then when I was at uni I stumbled upon my first fandom (Stargate Atlantis) and started writing and posting fanfic. And then about a year or two before Glee came into all of our lives, I stopped. With the fanfic, and the original. Things weren’t good, for a number of reasons. I was frustrated, I was stressed, and I was disillusioned. I swore to myself that I would never write again. And that could have been the end of it.

Only then, I was sitting at home one day, I had just finished a big freelance project and I was tired and I was bored and someone on LJ mentioned something about this pilot episode of this show about singing teenagers that sounded ridiculous enough for me to want to check it out.

It took me about five minutes to fall in love, and four episodes in I was addicted. I loved this stupid show, so much that I started looking for fandom online even during season one. And when Klaine became a thing, there was no going back anymore. I started looking for fanfiction. I stopped lurking and started making friends. I started writing again. And then in June of 2011 I posted my first fic in years. And it felt good. And suddenly, I was writing again.

So, this is just one of the things Glee means to me. But it’s a big one. Because I was ready to give up, and then a bunch of teenagers sang Don’t Stop Believing on my TV, and I … didn’t. And now I am writing again. I am trying again. And maybe, one day, I’ll even get one of my original things published. In the meantime, getting to share my words with all of you here in this fandom is such an honour and a pleasure and I am so happy that I got to do it, and I’m not going to stop now.

And then, of course, there are the many wonderful friends I have made, all of you, I love you. I am so grateful for every single one of you. Oh, and while I’m at it, those people I annoy almost daily with my random emails every time my brain comes up with something I have to share right this minute: completelyunabashed, mailroomorder, wheretheshadowslie and bluecloudsupabove, you know you guys are stuck with me for the rest of forever now, don’t you?

In conclusion: Glee means a lot to me. It will always mean a lot to me. I have writing back. I have made amazing friends. And you guys, I am so grateful for all of you, thank you for everything, it’s been fun! And if you want to, I’ll still be here, let’s keep loving this show together for a long time, okay?
alianne82: (klaine)
I'll be brief.

Glee 6x10 episode reaction )
alianne82: (klaine)
6x07 reaction below the cut )
alianne82: (klaine)
6x06 reaction below the cut )
alianne82: (tree)
Because there is one thing that I would like to talk about but I don't want to do it on tumblr.

Under a cut for anyone who hasn't seen 6x05 )
alianne82: (tree)
It's Friday. For a large part of the Glee fandom that's the end of the hiatus, for a few (un?)lucky ones like me living in different time zones, there's still one more day to breathe before it starts again for the last time.

The hiatus that seemed like it would never end is finally over, and now that it is, many of us would give a good deal to see it extended for just a little while longer, to delay the inevitable for just those few more days/weeks/whatever. I know that if the choice were mine, I'd probably keep pushing it back indefinitely just to always have something to be looking forward to.

Because, to be honest, I don't know how to say goodbye. I never have. In fact, I avoid it at all costs. When I left my uni town to move away, I literally packed up my things and left. My flatmate knew and the two friends I had asked to help me carry boxes knew. But I did everything I could to not have to talk to anyone about it. And I do this thing when I leave a place that's important to me where I firmly lie to myself that I'm just going grocery shopping until I'm too far away for it to matter anymore. I am really good at avoiding. And I am now avoiding to acknowledge the end of Glee.

I'm not even going to start with phrases like "it's just a show." Yes, of course it's "just" a show, whatever that "just" means in this context. But this show means a lot to me, and this fandom means a lot to me. Because of this show and this fandom, I have made amazing new friends and I have read things that will stay with me forever.

And also, I just love Glee. I really, honestly love Glee and its characters with all my heart, and I am going to miss them so, so much.

I have been in fandom pretty much my entire life; I bought Star Trek magazines with my pocket money before there was internet, I have been on message boards, on geocities, on livejournal. I've had a lot of fandoms, some more casual than others, and I have loved them all. But Glee is more special to me than I could ever have expected it to be and the loss of it makes me sadder than I could ever have predicted. I have never loved a show the way I love Glee. It's like saying goodbye to a friend.

There is a place in Scandinavia by the North Sea that is my absolute favourite place on this Earth. I can't go there often, but I try to go every few years. If someone told me I could only go there one more time, and then never again, I think what I'd be feeling would be fairly similar to the way I am now feeling about the end of my favourite show. I'd be sad, really sad. But I also know that I'd make it count, every beautiful second of it. I'd enjoy it as fully as I could for as long as it lasted.

And here's the thing that's important to remember: the memories and the feelings and the place itself don't cease to exist because you can never go there again. It is all still there and still as important. And it's the same with fandom. The show will end, but we don't have to.

I love Glee. I love this fandom. I'm unbelievably sad about the impending end of canon, but this fandom will be here for as long as people still want to come online to share their love for this beautiful, crazy, perfectly imperfect show.

For now, I'm going to enjoy every single moment of it while it lasts. And I already have my full rewatch scheduled. I have fic planned out for quite a while yet. I'm going to keep loving this show the way I have for the past years. When I watched the Pilot all those years ago I really did not expect to have found something that would make me think so much and feel so many things and love so strongly. But that's exactly what happened.

I love Glee. I wish the hiatus weren't over, but I can't deny that I am also looking forward to that fluttery-excited anticipation for a new episode once a week, and for me, Fridays work out great because now I can watch the episodes before breakfast on Saturdays and not have to get through an entire day without internet before I can see it.

I love Glee. And I'll keep loving it for a long time.

(End note: I'd like to stay unspoiled, so please don't tell me anything about the new season. *hugs* to all of you!)

Glee 3x11

Feb. 1st, 2012 02:00 pm
alianne82: (Default)
Glee 3x11 episode thoughts )

Glee 3x10

Jan. 18th, 2012 07:55 pm
alianne82: (Default)

Well. Thoughts? Not many. Still, at least there's a lot of snark potential...


Glee 3.10 - a recap. Or How To Watch The Entire Episode In Ten Minutes. )

alianne82: (santanalebanese)
Glee 3x07 )

Glee 3x04

Nov. 2nd, 2011 09:07 pm
alianne82: (Default)
thoughts and stuff )
alianne82: (santanalebanese)
cut for spoiler-y stuff )

tv

Mar. 24th, 2011 02:09 pm
alianne82: ((gg) reality)
So, this is a tv post. Because I haven't done one in a while. And I'm bored.

This is where I go on and on about how tv sucks and is totally awesome and how hiatuses should be outlawed and about what to watch and what not to. )
alianne82: (ace)
I totally wasn't gonna start watching a new show, because I have enough to do as it is and I already have way too many fandoms and I really don't need to watch something new when I have so many old shows to watch and re-watch... but at least half of my flist seems to watch it and Joss Whedon says he loves it and there's singing and dancing, so, yeah, I caved. Watched the first episode of Glee last night, and then the second, and the third, and so on up to episode six. I. LOVE. IT.

Those people can SING. Seriously. And I am just in love with the weird kind of humor and the singing and the fact that someone finally made a good and fun-to-watch TV musical, which is basically just the show I always wanted to watch. (Ok, I admit, I'd love it even more if it was set on a space ship or at least an alien planet instead of a high school, but you can't have everything right?) LOVE IT. Must. Watch. More.

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